Where I waited for you

Having taken the last train into Cheyenne Wyoming

I’m in my half-priced red dress 1:45 am In a cheap motel

I am perfectly groomed Silk stockings A garter belt

Eyebrows, lips, hair so detailed

Between my legs I am washing with orange blossom water and vanilla

I am the  perfect lover

Bucket of ice on the nightstand

Laying still on this bed Legs smoothe from my bic razor

I love hate my need for you

And hope your wife will just go away

Absurd in the dark I rearrange the way my hair falls on the pillow

Like the dead really And my hands are like ice

A wreck and too proud to admit the fool I am

Having used every last penny I had

On this ticket, bottle of wine, oil that you will smell and think me magic

Irresistable, see how easily I make you laugh

I know you and what you want

Snakes are in my belly And I know it

My cuticle bleed where I cannot stop picking at them

I am a fraud and have no intention of

Allowing you to see this

Perfect I lay on these dirty sheets In this cheap motel

Getting up 25, 200, 250 times to peep out the window

Pour more orange blossom between my legs Apply more lipstick

Dawn – You never come

Circles under my eyes, ridiculous, mouth so dry

preposterous with red lipstick

I smell sour I am alone With a stupid bucket of water by the bed

Found a corner of the room to call my own and fuck myself

To the sound of the infomercial

I did too much

I do too much

I can never make this right